19/07/2023

old people?! I am really confused by old people. Sometimes I love them but sometimes, I am totally frustrated by them. Just like babies.

But I feel they are not the same. A lot of people tend to say that the elderly and the kids are the same. But I don't believe in this shitty theory. They are much much more mischievous than the kids cause, they know all the tricks of the trade. But then again, they are more sensitive as well. Somebody who has a day to day exposure to old people will totally understand this. You want to offer them everything in the world and yet you won't be able to solve their problem. The feeling of helplessness is so so prominent and prevalent in people of that age. And you can't do anything apart from being there for them. 

But you won't be able to replace their partner to whom they were married for 63 years who is now gone and you can't bring them back from the dead, you won't be able to replace the people and the experiences they have shared in their 80 or so years of existence.

No matter how hard you try, you won't be able to do it. But now they are alone and everybody else their age is either dead or dying. I can't even imagine living like this. Maybe that's why they behave like kids, to escape from what reality is, to live with no responsibility, to just lay there and breathe. Or maybe, after so many years of living in this world, they have realised that this is the best way to live life, maybe?

Like a kid.

But the physical and mental pain they suffer. The fading memory, the concept of what is right and wrong. I can't live like that. I mean as a teenager, my thoughts and opinions are what matter to me the most. I feel we spend most of our life learning but old age, old age is definitely to unlearn. Unlearn everything you've ever been taught, unlearn every concept, every theory, every damn thing you've ever acquired in your life. And just go fully empty. Free from all the constraints the human race has to offer.